In the novel The Stranger by Albert Camus, the main character Meursault is faced with the overwhelming feeling of grief. Meursault was faced with the loss of his mother and then his conflict with the justice system, which detached him from his emotions. The book opened my eyes to the ability grief has to take over someone and distort life’s meaning. Moreover, it revealed to me that I need to live my life and spend the most time possible with my loved ones to not have regret for not enjoying the time I have in life.
After Meursault killed the Arab, Meursault could not display any emotion and did not deny the murder. This resulted in Meursault receiving a long sentence in prison, even though he had multiple friends testify for him and a good attorney to represent him. Meursault is perceived as a monster because he does not show remorse for the killing because of the emotions he has been shoving down and not expressing after his mother passed away. This revealed to me that even though Meursault committed a crime he knew was awful, the grief of his mother’s death took control of him. This conveyed to me how grief is a feeling that lots are unable to process and fully deal with. Like Meursault, lots of people push it down and detach from those gut-wrenching feelings. This ultimately gave me a better perspective on how the death of a loved one and the regret held from not spending the valuable time you have with someone will eventually tear a person apart.
Once Meursault was in prison and becoming more self-aware that he put himself in, he began to realize that a sentence as long as he was receiving was not worth it and that an execution in front of the public would do him better. At this point, Meursault begins to lose the entire meaning of life and believes his life is not worth living. This indicated to me that grief and regret will in the end begin to become all you can think about. As Meursault began to lose the meaning of his life, I began to realize that you cannot live life uncertain and regretful, instead, I should be living in the moment and taking the time I had and using it to become better than I already am.
Everybody always says to live life to the fullest, but after reading The Stranger and being in Meursault’s shoes I realized that’s true. Living with regret will at some point harm you and change your perspective on life. Even though it seems easy and like basic human nature, it’s time to continue to live my life with a greater purpose.